Life never turns out like you expect to it. If it did, I’d have gotten married at 19 to Justin Timberlake and we’d be expecting baby #5 of 8. Thankfully, that’s not how life worked out. It really works out in the exact opposite way plus some corkscrews and double loops and you end up where you never expected. I’m almost 29 (😱) with a great husband and two little girls and a job I’ll be at til I’m in my 60s. I never thought I’d be here. I had hoped I would be. I had wanted marriage and kids. I always worried I wouldn’t find the right person. I feel like I blinked and it’s all here in front of me. My heart is so full and so happy to have everything I ever dreamed of. I sometimes forget that they are what matters. I get caught up in money and possessions and social media. But they are what matters. They are my everything. Everything else is pebbles. (In case you’ve been under a rock and haven’t heard this story: http://www.appleseeds.org/big-rocks_covey.htm for reference) it’s easy to caught up on the pebbles. Today I’ll try to remember to focus on my big rocks.
I’ve been trying to figure out what I want to say for father’s day. This is the 3rd attempt to write something (I deleted the last two because I hated them). I can’t seem to put into words what I want to say. Maybe it’s because there really isn’t any right words to express how great the father’s that have touched my life are and how thankful I am for them.
My dad worked for years at a job he hated to support his family. When I say he hated it, I mean he HATED it. I honestly thought a mental health day was a real thing until I was in my teen years. He helped provide the best education possible for my sister and me and we had more of everything that we could’ve needed. My dad and I had a hard time getting along while I was growing up, and I realize now that I’m older that it’s because we’re so much alike. We are opinionated. We don’t back down. We like to always be right. We both have horrible tempers. I know that EB and I are going to be the same way (unfortunately). She’s Little Amy, and, even though no one ever called me it, I’ve always been Little Roger. Despite our head butting, I was always a daddy’s girl. He’s a jokester who likes to make people laugh. I’ll always remember him coming in and playing with my Simba before bed or him tickling me during dinner. Now, he gets to be the loveable playful Opa to EB and Mattie, and that’s the greatest role to get to watch him in. You can’t really appreciate him when you’re the kid and he’s the dad. You don’t have a scope of the world and relationships. But the Opa role, he’s perfect in. I’m so lucky he gets to be a part of these girls lives. I may have to send him their dentist bills though if he’s going to keep sneaking them so much candy.
Josh’s dad came into my life 9+ years ago. I’ve learned quite a bit about Josh’s childhood through the years, and I know that the high regard Josh has for his dad is warranted. Josh had an unusual childhood with his parents separating twice before he was 8. He was raised from then on by just his dad. Neil taught him the value of hard work and doing whatever you have to do for your family. Josh didn’t have a lot growing up, but he always had everything he needed. He taught Josh how to be a “man” and how to be a dad. You step up when you need to and you do what you have to do. He is an amazing Papaw to our girls. When we told him that he was getting a granddaughter, Josh apologized as if we had done something wrong. He told him not to be with a gleam in his eye. That look has never gone away. He adores both of his girls, and the feeling is mutual.
Both of our dads have helped make us the people we are, and watching Josh be a dad is a joy to watch. I’ve wanted to be a mommy as long as I can remember. I’ve always wondered who the father would be and how he would be with my fictitious future babies. Josh is more than I ever imagined. He loves his babies with such a fierceness that I don’t think he even realizes it’s there. He lays on the floor and lets them jump all over him. He lets EB push the balls on the Tsum Tsum game. He lets them watch ponies on the tv when he’d rather be playing video games. He lays on the floor next to them at night and listens to them talk before bed. He carries EB on his shoulders at the flea market. He splashes and plays in the water table with them. He wrestles and daddy drops them until theyre gasping for breath from laughing. And, most importantly, he would die for these girls, walk through fire, take a bullet, brave going to the Walmart toy section. He would literally work himself to death if it meant that his girls could have everything the world has to offer. He pushes himself and forgoes sleep and things he wants to do for them. He is the best daddy I could’ve picked for my children. He cried when EB was born and danced for Mattie. He is their world and they are his. One of the best parts of being a mommy is getting to watch him be a daddy to my girls.
So it’s the middle of June and one of these days I’m going to have only one month to recap on, but today is not the day.
We last left off with Easter and so much has happened since then. April was a very busy month for us. We started the month with a weekend filled with parties.
April 2 – We were booked solid this day with two parties back to back, but I started the morning with some quiet time with my big one. I took Ellabelle to Daylight Donuts (which is our favorite donut place) by herself and she was thrilled. She got to pick out a donut and have mommy’s complete attention.
That afternoon we went to Sophia’s second birthday party. It was Minnie Mouse themed, and the girls loved having other kids to play with. We headed over to Cathy and Red’s for the spaghetti dinner. We didn’t last long there though because neither of the girls had gotten their naps.
April 16 – Zoo day!
We took the girls to see the manimals at the zoo. Lisa came along too which was a great help. We had a great time and the weather was great.
Mattie got her zoo animal (Ellabelle got Satellite on her first visit) for her first visit – SlowMoe the Sloth. It was also to make up for my broke heart since Moe the real life sloth was not out to be seen.
May was an even busier month for us.
May 6 – Reds game after work
I won Reds tickets on opening day at work. So Josh and I decided to go. We aren’t big baseball people and going to the game only reinforced that fact. We barely made it through the 2nd inning. But it was fun to hang out with just each other.
May 7 – Civil War and Dinner
Since Oma and Opa watched the girl over night for us, we went early to see the new marvel movie, Captain America Civil War. It was great. Plus, Cap is one of my fictional boyfriends so it was nice to see him on the big screen.
We had dinner with Josh’s mom and sisters family that night. It was nice to get the family together since we don’t see them as often as we’d like to.
May 8 – Mother’s Day
We spend Mother’s Day at my Grandmas house. We had pizza and spent time with my moms side of the family. I love when we all get together and that my girls get to be folded into this crazy loving family.
May 15 – Mattie’s Party
After months of prep, my monsters party day finally arrived! It was so cold that she wore her footy jammies under her carefully picked out and created birthday outfit. She was loved on by so many people and I think she really had a good time. Ellabelle didn’t have a problem at the party with sharing the spotlight, but that’s only because people kept taking her over to the playground.
May 19 – Matilda’s 1st Birthday
So I was kinda sorta hoping that digging in my heels and willing the calendar to stop would actually work and my baby wouldn’t turn 1. However, the morning of the 19th arrived anyway and my birthday girl had no idea anything was going on. Lol. She got to open her present and eat her cupcake from her party (it was too cold to strip her on her party day). Ellabelle didn’t handle not having any presents to open very well, and she’s still not handling that they are Mattie’s and not hers to play with. I squished and loved my baby and I’m so thankful for the first of many years with my sweet pea.
May 20 – Flat tire
We were on our way home from work when two different cars tried to stop us on the highway. Apparently, we had gotten a flat tire. Thankfully, we made it home safe and sound. We had to completely replace the tire though.
May 21 – 5th Wedding Anniversary
This guy is my rock and my shelter in this crazy world. I am so lucky I get to call him mine. I love you, Pooh Bear!
May 22 – More Car Trouble
We got a SECOND flat tire, but thankfully this tire was able to simply be patched. Josh took it to the shop and they let us know that our back brakes were metal on metal. Sooo, that meant more money to be shelled out. It was a really rough week car wise especially since the Taurus isn’t running currently. We got it all fixed though.
May 28 – 1 year doctor appointment
Mattie had her doctors appointment in the morning. She is a whole 22lbs of chunky love. She’s gotten longer too though so she’s evened out. She got three shots and did not appreciate them. Poor baby.
May 30 – Memorial Day
We went over to see Oma and Opa for the first time after Opa’s surgery. It was a nice visit even if it was hard to Ellabelle to understand why she wasn’t allowed to sit and play with Opa.
June has consisted of mostly laying low and shuffling through our work week. We get home so late that there’s not much time for anything other than dinner, baths, and bed.
Some little random tidbits:
Ellabelle has been working really hard on learning to write her name. She getting pretty good at it. She’s just having a hard time with the A so she writes Ellebelle.
We’ve been trying to let the girls play with water as much as possible and get them outside. They love the pool and water table.
Even with our financial situation the way it is, we still try to take the girls on miniadventures.